Tonight, I admit I sit here apprehensive about the future. This is not a good state of mind for a person with a predisposition to depression, a person with fibromyalgia that is easily affected by stress, it can put me into a flare of monumental proportions. Since I started this blog I promised my readers that have followed my journey into the darkness that I would keep them apprised of my journey.
This is the day before a bigot, a man who has exhibited behavior to women that I have personally experienced, a man that doesn’t seem to even be literate enough to write a complete sentence, let alone intelligent enough to run a country becomes our nation’s leader. This is a worrisome time not just for me, but for our country. I believe he is an embarrassment to our country because he is not what our country represents, he does not believe in the same values of integrity, ethics, and honesty that the majority of our country believes.
So, tonight I sit in preparation not just for a darker future than I have experienced because of illness, but because of an incompetent man put in place by those who have been misled by fear and hate. Tonight, I also prepare to march in my first protest march tomorrow on my state’s capitol to voice my rejection of this person whom I believe did not gain this position legally or ethically. Tonight, I prepare for another march on Saturday, the Women’s March for women’s rights – not just women’s rights but for human rights, healthcare rights, gay rights, justice, and equality. I may only be one voice, but I will be one voice united with many. Am I scared? Frankly, yes., but this won’t stop me. I feel this issue is too important to stay silent. Am I going to suffer for this physically? Probably. But again, this issue is too important to stay home. I will not be a sheep and be led blindly into what seems to be a grim future if we do not act.
So tonight, I am in preparation. Mental preparation, gathering my courage and trying to quiet the butterflies in my stomach.
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Update: Peaceful Protest March photos from this morning’s march. I overcame my fear and found it wasn’t so bad.
You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ You must do the thing you think you cannot do.